all right..not the best

"how are you"?

normal answer will be "fine. good. thank you"

at the moment, I would be in the "all right.. not the best" mood..

I laze in bed every weekday morning, trying to find every reason not to go to work.

I wake up feeling "heavy in the heart" don't know what to expect for the day.

I think I had lost a bit of that motivation that drove me to complete the numerous projects I have in hand.

With this economy heartless situation, questions are not answered. more questions are asked

resolutions, ambitions.

what does it take to fulfil them? I just failed one simple resolution i had yesterday, all because of time management. Still, every small little thing needs a plan.

I've been searching online for my "dream". searching online to find ways to fulfil my next step . searching online for the effects of my next step.

How I actually want to do it, to take out a sum of money for to risk remains a mystery.

Everything is risky, do I have what it takes to conquer the risk?

I realise I'm still lazy.. not in the sense of slouching on the crouch but lazy as in trying to let everying solve on its own.. words like "see how it goes", "let's wait" and "maybe"

I NEED TO JUST DO IT! and DO IT RIGHT! in EVERYTHING.