moved

in case .. just in case
anyone is still following this blog.

I've shifted to

http://www.twentyo23othree.blogspot.com/

after a delay...
once again updating my blog..

this week has been pretty good. did my career development review. good stuffs came out of it.

things come and go.. issues raised and settled... ability to know and solve..

confidence is very important to one's performance. Preparation is critical as well.

what I've learnt this week? never fail to prepare..and be confident in every task that you do..

nice lunch today.. and dinner too.. just great to have company.. thanks..

feelings...

so many things going thru his head now..at least there are something in there..

most of the times, those thoughts are not put into action. and he often had regrets about what can be done. This process always come after something had happened.

why can't he be more sensitive and sensible and put THIS process before rather than after?

happens for all things in his life..relationship, work, friends.

so many times he knew about the solution, the action to the problem, but he doesn't do it until the opportunity passes. blame it on his dependence for people around him, and these are hurting them, and failing him as well. He's not ready for anything yet. everything good that had happened to him, there's an assistance. He's a problem finder, not a problem solver. He always turns to his east, west, north, south whenever there is a problem. Never did he know, if there's no one out there, he will have a lot of trouble solving problems, if he ever did.

he has aspirations, he has plans, he procastinates, and he assumes all things will come good in the end. His actions, causes embarressment to others, hurts love ones. BUT, never did he intend to do that. He needs the voice, the push for him, to make the right decisions, say the right things and do the right stuff.

He's probably not ready for anything big at the moment. hopefully, he finds the him that he is. and start solving things to his advantage and not causing any disadvantage to his close ones.

all right..not the best

"how are you"?

normal answer will be "fine. good. thank you"

at the moment, I would be in the "all right.. not the best" mood..

I laze in bed every weekday morning, trying to find every reason not to go to work.

I wake up feeling "heavy in the heart" don't know what to expect for the day.

I think I had lost a bit of that motivation that drove me to complete the numerous projects I have in hand.

With this economy heartless situation, questions are not answered. more questions are asked

resolutions, ambitions.

what does it take to fulfil them? I just failed one simple resolution i had yesterday, all because of time management. Still, every small little thing needs a plan.

I've been searching online for my "dream". searching online to find ways to fulfil my next step . searching online for the effects of my next step.

How I actually want to do it, to take out a sum of money for to risk remains a mystery.

Everything is risky, do I have what it takes to conquer the risk?

I realise I'm still lazy.. not in the sense of slouching on the crouch but lazy as in trying to let everying solve on its own.. words like "see how it goes", "let's wait" and "maybe"

I NEED TO JUST DO IT! and DO IT RIGHT! in EVERYTHING.

Blue Mountains

drove up to Blue Mountains to celebrate Denise's 25th Birthday. apart from the weather: rainy, foggy and cold.. everything's relaxing. Actually, it was quite good - minus the extra concentration required to drive safely on the roads with limited visibility.

went for the couple spa retreat - 4 hrs which included a hot stone therapy, facial, hydrotherapy, hand and feet treatment for me, and deluxed pedicure for the birthday girl.

hot stone therapy was relaxing, soothing and we got a good massuer, which makes the experience even better.

hydrotherapy was Ok. almost out of breath with the small space and the steam going off.

facial was refreshing - hand and feet treatment is a treatment I won't do it again. Pain when they scrape the nails. you may be wondering - why did I do it? haha, because is all in a package. a couples package. I never know you could put mask on ur feet and hands..

stayed overnight and drove around the next day.. weather was still horrid.. on the way back, we saw 2 cars skidded off into the median vegetation. looks bad.
we got home safe and sound..

what?

satisfying others?

being fair to others?

what about yourself? What about me?

being fair to others = not being fair to myself

satisfying others means losing out on myself

why? why do I always need to think about you..... you .....and you..

couldn't really care less now..

weekend started shit.. woke up. feeling the same as Monday..

guess it will end shit as well.....

negativity for this week.. hope this doesn't continues...

sick..

sick of running other people's show
sick of being satisfying others
sick of pleasing others
sick of getting things right for somthing that doesn't belong to myself
sick of working
sick of waking up early in the morning
sick of getting the stick
sick of other's people attitude

I'm just gonna be transparent right now, to ppl that don't deserve or worth it.

given the economy crisis now...
I love my job
I love my job
I love my job... RIGHT!

Flat, Punctured

It was 6pm.. time to head for the gym...

went down to the car park, only to find my tyre flattened, with a hissing sound when I put my head just beside the tyre.

What to do?

C: Hello D, tell you sth.. my tyre punctured

D: ahz? what you going to do? make a call? NRMA? Honda?

C: I think I will fixed it up myself.. (proceeds to open the boot and brings the spare tyre and the tools out)

C: how come will burst?

D: stop thinking of why? think of what to do..

C: (getting agitated).. I'll call you back

ring ring

D: why dont you call Honda and ask them about it.

C: ok.. what's the number

D: 1800....... is toll-free

C: all rightz.. call you back later..

rang up Honda, and they send NRMA down to fix up my tyre..5 minutes job.

jack up, screw out, tyre down.

install spare tyre, screw in, jack down. "there you go"...

in the end, din have to pay a cent, just 40 mins of my time. and I miss gym..

went to Star City and got ang pow from God of Fortune..

believe it or not, i had a dream last night. In it, my car crash quite badly...maybe what happened was a blessing in disguise

thanks D for being with me and travelling up North to meet me. What a experience. Still have to send my Hondaz to get a new tyre.

lesson 2..

stop asking questions and start making statements

Good Songs at the Moment....

Kanye West - Love Lockdown
Kanye West - Heartless
Lady Gaga - Eh Eh
Fall Out Boy - I Don't Care
T.I feat Justin Timberlake - Dead and Gone

Enjoy~~

Happy Lunar New Year

Gong Xi Fa Cai everybody in this Year of the Ox May all of us harvest prosperity and success in all aspects. Not forgetting HEALTH.. most important.

Had our reunion dinner on Sunday. Luckily, this year, "chu yi" is also Australia Day here, which means we get a public holiday. Denise needs to work though.

Anyway, trying to be in the mood for tradition, we had fun cooking dishes that meant something. We have leeks, tau kua, mushroom, fish etc. We also had pineapple tarts too. Rare delicacy over here.

The day I'm looking forward is here.. long weekend.. but is gonna be over soon. tomorrow, my year officially starts, cos I need to work. Fresh start, fresh ambitions, fresh resolutions.

Have fun everyone back home.. spend your money wisely.. =)

cheers all

ambition

remember when your primary school teacher ask you about your ambition?
doctor, lawyer, pilot are popular answers. I definitely did not say engineer.

Did we even ever gave a serious thought about it? I'm sure many of us are doing what "the path" is leading us to. Many of us.. the path is education results.

How do we actually go and achieve our ambition. Surely, it doesnt just happened.
Opportunities come and go. We have to make sure we grab them when they arrived. Many sources would say networking is important but I'm sure everything comes at a price, and has its own pros and cons.

What is my ambition? I've been asking myself. Unrealistically, it is to become a sportsperson.
Realistically, i'm not sure although i'm proud to be an engineer, a traffic engineer.

these couple of days, pretty interested in sports management. There's actually an MBA with sports management as an elective. Just a thought.

Congrats to denise for a good day at 2 offices.
Congrats to barack for a good day at the white house
good on my sis for trying her hands on trap shooting. haven asked her yet, hope she was able to shoot down some targets.

2 days to go to weekend. another 4 days to Chinese New Year.


don't be lazy

Driving Courtesy Lesson 2...

Old Celica: driven by a big size housewife like lady, speeds up and overtakes @ a tight angle

Hondaz Civic: gives a long horn, trying to be funny.

Old Celica: Middle finger comes up from the driver's window

Hondaz Civic: seeing this, gives another horn to signal his displeasure

Old Celica: once again, with unruly behavior, gives another nice one up

My dad always tells me: "Don't quarrel with people on the roads, not worth it since it is just a 5 seconds meeting"

My reaction: F*ck*ng Bitch..the way you are driving..no wonder there are more and more road bullies and accident rates are going up...really really really want to curse her... and I did.

Personal....

Why do I always try to answer each question in 1 sentence.

I can always elaborate, can't I?

noted..

Discussion Post

Scene: Brought my car to service centre to find out what's the cause of the slight irritating noise coming out from the engine?

Moment: Honda staff ask me for the key and told me to sit at the waiting area while they test my car

Action: Did as told

Question: Should I have insist to follow him?

Result: Staff came back half an hr late, informing me on the problem and the solution

Dilemma: I think I should have follow him. What if he is targetting the wrong problem and the solution wouldn't be the right one?

Conclusion: I think from now on, I need to know what my rights are. and know it quick. very quick and to response quickly. something to learn.

Any comments welcomed.

cheers

Things I Wanna do in 2009

2009 has just started. There are some things which I really like to to/take up for this year.
I guess 11 months should be enough to complete most if not all of the following:

1) Basic Archery;
2) Basic Golf;
3) Whitewater Rafting;

4) Harbour Bridge Climb;

5) Less soccer news; and
6) Tasmania/Perth/Cairns or New Zealand. At least, plan a good trip.


more to come once I think of more....

laziness is the root of evilness
everything happens for a reason. WE made it happened!*

Trip Review

Singapore.. Another trip back home to have a holiday break of one month.

Was disappointed that I did not have the chance to board the Singapore Flyer due to its mechanical failure on my birthday. The last time I was back in Singapore, it was still under construction, this time, something like that happened. What good timing.

Ate too much during the 1st 2 weeks back. Thanks to mum. Feeding me whenever she can.
Who can resist all the delicious food she has prepared. Maybe my sis. =). Due to her health conditions, she's on a porridge diet ever since she had her operation. Good on ya.

Catch up with just a few friends this time round. Due to festive seasons and family commitments, apologies to those who I din get to meet up.

Glad that denise's family settled well into their new home. I find the home the right choice. Nice comfy location. Well done. Special mention to the removalists who are able to carry a washing machine's weight per person.

As per usual, loads of thinking this time round. Some of my thoughts:
1) Laziness is the root of all evilness;
2) Any other industries that I'm interested in?
3) Traffic engineering still?
4) Aussie?
5) Where does my future lies??

Time to set some New Year 2009 resolutions based on the above few questions.